Posts by John Aquila

DATA-DOG

I freaked out a bit when learning TTATT. It's been a couple of years, and I've gained some perspective.
Before calming down a bit, I would have panic attacks ( small ones ) where , "Omg!! I....AM....GOING....TO....DIE.." raced through my head. I would drink quite a bit, and lie in the fetal position, sometimes for hours.

Well its good to know I wasn't the only one going through that. Heck, i wasn't sure if I was finally losing it and I was about to change my residence.

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OMG, I’m gonna get Old and Die.

by John Aquila in

when it finally clicked,.

and you realized there was no 1914, there was no generation that would see the end of a wicked system, there was no paradise around the corner, .

what went through you mind?.

John Aquila

Crazyguy
It was a crazy feeling to realize that there is no life after death and no I'm not going to live forever. .... I chose my name crazyguy because of all these emotions.

Would you believe the first time I saw your name, I had a strong feeling that's why you chose that name. It's CrAzY!

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If Women were elders, would it make a difference in the organization?

by John Aquila in

imagine three single sisters who qualified to be appointed as elders in the congregation.

they qualified because they started reaching out in their early teens.

persistently and methodically they worked their way through the ranks by pioneering then becoming a m.s.

John Aquila

OrphanCrow

If women were elders, it would change the whole structure of the organization - a structure that in its current form fosters the sexual exploitation of women.

I say "yes" - make women elders. And watch the rate of child sexual abuse drop. It is the lack of respect for women and children, combined with the sense of entitlement given to the men, that is responsible for the high rate of sexual abuse within the organization. The men are taught that women don't have the right to say no - women are seen as not having the right of consent and by extension, children have no rights, either.

Women have more power than they think.

Remember Samson and Delilah? Who was smarter, who was more cunning? Who toppled the most powerful?

And if you don't agree, you can sleep on the couch tonight!!

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OMG, I’m gonna get Old and Die.

by John Aquila in

when it finally clicked,.

and you realized there was no 1914, there was no generation that would see the end of a wicked system, there was no paradise around the corner, .

what went through you mind?.

John Aquila

Tornintwo

maybe theres something in it and Jesus will come back, maybe he won't, either way waking up is making me realise
1. Better earn more cash and start saving
2. Better enjoy life now

I think that is one of the most important reasons why it is so important to wake up.

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The Reason Why Jehovah's Witnesses Will Never Prosper Is The Children

by minimus in

jw
friends

i believe that the religion will remain stagnant due to their achilles heel, the kids, the children, that next generation.. most of them really don't wa t to be in the religion.

the parents may have tried everything within their power to make the kids love jehovah but we all know you can't force someone to love you and you can't make a grown person stay in a relationship or situation if they really don't want to be there..

John Aquila

In my immediate family, this religion dies when Dad goes.

I'm actually seeing this happen many times over. I was in about 40 years. Of the families I came in with, only two individuals have stayed. The rest, (about 40 families) of the children are out and living a normal life. They don't even attend the memorial.

And the children of the children will never become involved in this cult.

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OMG, I’m gonna get Old and Die.

by John Aquila in

when it finally clicked,.

and you realized there was no 1914, there was no generation that would see the end of a wicked system, there was no paradise around the corner, .

what went through you mind?.

John Aquila

I now realise life is hopeless. I hate life. I can't wait to die but don't want to end it myself.

Hang in there my friend,

I think it's time to take a little break and enjoy a nice slice of pizza, a drink, and sit back and enjoy a nice scenery with some nice background music.

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OMG, I’m gonna get Old and Die.

by John Aquila in

when it finally clicked,.

and you realized there was no 1914, there was no generation that would see the end of a wicked system, there was no paradise around the corner, .

what went through you mind?.

John Aquila

When it finally clicked,

And you realized there was no 1914, there was no generation that would see the end of a wicked system, there was no paradise around the corner,

What went through you mind?

And when you realized that the thing you cherished the most, that is;

That you would be with you spouse forever, and with your children forever, and with your grandchildren, and with your great grandchildren, and with your parents, and their parents,

Had just been ripped out of your hands,

Did you break down and cry?

Did you feel like killing someone?

Did it take weeks to recover, or months, or years, or are you still recovering and see no end in sight?

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Undue influence - other areas in life

by DavidG in

jw
friends

after gradually waking up to ttatt im finding myself with this question:.

since it is so easy to be indoctrinated with jw beliefs, are there other areas in my life where i'm also under influance of other false beliefs?

from the culture i've grown up with, school etc?.

John Aquila

are there other areas in my life where I'm also under influance of other false beliefs?

I think that is just part of life. Our life span is so limited that what we believe is the result of the knowledge available. People used to believe for thousands of years that the Sun revolved around the Earth. Millions died believing that. Then more information became available and we found out different.

I think we are all under undue influence in some way or another until we find out we are. Then we're not!

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How many of you think.......

by punkofnice in

..that the governing body are only in it for money and power?.

how many of you think the gb are all/some are sincere?.

okay, i know this has been asked before but i can't find the thread and there are newbies here.....and i like the sound of my own voice.

John Aquila

punkofnice
JohnAquila - I hate to say this, but I wonder if the GB prefer children!

You might be right.

On the other hand, I believe they know what they teach is false, but at the same time they think they have the truth. It's mental gymnastics.

It's what I use to do when I was in the borg.

I would say to myself, "This can't be right, but we have the truth"

Its a strange phenomenon